There’s a pair of underwear in my purse.  The good news is I found all the clean ones, but not until I pulled in2 the parking lot at the Mexican place.  So, I had 2 change in their bathroom.  I’m already wearing the ones from yesterday inside out.  I thought that wasn’t a real thing when people said it.  It’s a real thing.  It’s been that kind of a day.  I still haven’t found a house and 2 of my appointments 2day fell through.  I did go gleaning at a farm and when one of the workers asked me what I wanted 2 do in this new phase I said, “I want 2 b free, and warm, and helpful.” That felt good when I heard it.

I had a nice chat with a lady about her 1970 vintage trailer.  She talks about it like I talked about my house.  I totally get how u can fall in love with something like that and it becomes a part of u – and u of it.  I would need 2 make peace with an outside shower.  If I’m only always in warm climates, I’m fine.  Saw the Rialta and as cool as it is, I cannot make peace with living in a van.   I tried.  But I need something home-y.

The good news is I’m sweaty and salty and sticky.  I keep reminding myself that I am warm and that I have a really cool rental car and that there is a God and I have turned this over 2 him.  I’m really just following a hunch.  And I freak out a little that I still haven’t really found anything that I like; really like.  I thought I would by now.  I feel I should b scanning Craigslist some more but instead I’m questioning my life.

And then I look up a the dark night and bright stars and think of all I’m grateful 4.   If u wanna get close 2 God quick and easy: gratitude.  Works every time.

I had lots of checkpoints 2day so I c things r lining up.  “Better than Wisconsin” a guy says when I’m getting out of my car.  I’m going 2 c a park lit up with Christmas displays.  I only know this experience from inside a car with the heat on.  I keep 4getting it’s December, because I’m barefoot.