I’ve been really stressed lately, which is unusual for me.  I feel thin skinned and easily disturbed.  On the way to Madison to have an early vegan Thanksgiving dinner I was helping a friend sort through his latest vehicle dilemma.  After brainstorming and weighing options I just had to finally say, “maybe you’ll be inspired if you just keep it open”.  This was reminding me to pray and that that hadn’t been my go-to option lately.  I usually am a big prayer, but not so much lately….hmmmm, maybe that correlates with the recent anxiety.  So I began.  Nothing big, just connecting.  I started to feel calm.  I felt a gentleness come over me; and as I began doing my various things in Madison, I was gentle with others.  And grateful for more than I had been before.

On the ride home I did some more.  The moon was full and lighting up my car and it lent itself well to reflection.

I had been reacting to things.  And I heard a Voice say, “turn to me whenever you are upset, and we can create instead”.  Oooo, that felt nice.  React vs. create – what two very different roads and results.

I don’t do so well when I act on my own.  I know the beauty and the power of surrender.  And when I react, I’m playing a victim.

Forgiveness is letting the ideas that trigger me in an uncomfortable situation go.  It’s always some fear.  It can be replaced.  It has already been replaced, with love.  If I wait, do nothing, and let something else appear.  Give reality a chance.  That’s forgiveness.  Not that I did anything bad but that my thinking was just wrong.

My friend Ally gave me her latest spell:  “no more decisions”                          I get that.  Let it show.  Step back and be led.  Now something new can happen.  I like it to be new.